Dying to Know You is a rather unusual book, so much so that when a friend asked me what it was about I really struggled to describe it. I told her that it was sort of like the film with Gerard Depardieu where the character played by Gerard writes love letters on behalf of a young man who can’t put his feelings into words.

IMDB tells me that the film is called Cyrano de Bergerac, and actually that story is slightly different as the writer of the love letters is in love with the recipient as well.

On the surface that is sort of the story here; Karl, a teenage boy tasked by his girlfriend to write her letters revealing his true self, asks a famous writer to help him put his feelings into words.

But it’s so much more than that.

Dying to Know You is written from the perspective of the famous writer (is it Aidan himself? I don’t think so, though elements may be based on fact) and is mostly his recollections of conversations between himself and Karl. But it’s not just a story about a young man trying to claim the heart of a young lady.

It’s about an old man who recognises himself in Karl and tries to help ensure that this young man does not make his mistakes.

It’s about a young man who is trying to find his way in the world following the death of his father.

It’s about discovering the you you are meant to be and being brave enough to let go of the things that aren’t right for you in life.

Again Aiden Chambers has captivated me with a Young Adult novel that stands head and shoulders above it’s counterparts. I highly recommend that you pick up a copy when it’s released on April 1, 2012 (or pre-order it now so you don’t forget).

–SPOILER ALERT–

It’s not often that I use the highlighting function in my Kindle, maybe I’m still getting used to it being there, but I found myself using it on several occasions while reading this book. Here’s some of the passages I captured:

“But then, I said to myself, don’t I have within me more than one self? I’ve seen two Karls tonight, but I’ve been two of myself as well. We’ve both been our summer selves, bright and confident and warm, and our winter selves, distressed and dark and cold.”

This one really struck a chord with me, I know that there are sides to my personality, the happy confident me that I wish I could be at all times, the anxious me that I try so hard to fight and the heartbroken me that I discovered recently. I like this notion of summer and winter selves to put words to those different sides.

“I asked myself what I’d do if this were one of my novels. What would I do at this point to push the plot on? but after trying this idea and that and each time being defeated by crumbling logic, every move lacking truth-to-life conviction, I accepted that this real life problem couldn’t be solved as if it were fiction, because in a novel I’d go back and change the plot so the stalemate would be avoided. But real life evolves its own unpredictable plots over which we characters have little control and only by hindsight, if then, discern the reasons and purposes.”

I thought this passage very clever, since this is a novel and therefore Aiden could very simply have changed the plot to solve the problem. But I also like the sentiment, that life has to be lived and that the problems we face cannot be undone simply by erasing the path that was taken and conjuring up a new one.

“This brings me back to that endlessly puzzling, endlessly fascinating question: When I’m talking to myself, whom am I talking to and who is doing the talking? Are we all in fact two people, not one? Are we all One and Another? What I know is that I have an “everyday self” […] and an “inner self”, the one I think go as my real self, the self who observes everything my everyday self does, comments and judges, praises and dispraises, considers what would be best to do and not to do, and assesses the results.”

I think I may have highlighted this one simply because that’s exactly how I think of myself, as two selves, and it’s reassuring to read that someone has had similar thoughts and therefore I am not mad!

“Sometimes the course of our lives depends on what we do or don’t do in a few second, a heartbeat, when we either seize the opportunity, or just miss it Miss the moment and you never get the chance again.”

Enough said.

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In the opening pages of the book Laura Brandon loses her father, and his dying wish is that she looks after a woman she has never heard of. Back home Laura tells her husband Ray about her father’s strange instructions, and he pleads with her not to pursue it any further. Torn between pleasing her father and her husband Laura leaves her five year old daughter in Ray’s care and goes to the Nursing Home to visit Sarah who is suffering from the early onset of Alzheimers and has never heard of Laura’s father. As Laura returns home more confused than ever she finds her husband dead from a gunshot wound, and her five year old daughter mute.

As always Diane has woven a complex tale that didn’t fail to keep me guessing all the way through, as the story of Sarah Tolley was revealed piece by piece. Diane moves the story seamlessly between the present day – where Laura Brandon has to deal not only with the suicide of her husband, but with the sudden muteness of her daughter – and the past – as Sarah Tolley tells Laura about Saint Margaret’s hospital and the dramatic events that resulted in the loss of her husband and her daughter.

At the heart of the story is the psychiatric hospital Saint Margaret’s, where Sarah discovers that instead of looking after his patients the award-winning Doctor P is using them as guinea pigs in shocking experiments designed to result in mind control. As far fetched as that might sound the US government really did fund such experiments in the 1950s and it’s quite shocking to think that people were hospitalised against their will and lobotomised as part of an experiment.

Breaking the Silence is one of those books where you think you’ve figured out the plot, only to realise that the author has lead you up the garden path on purpose, just to keep you guessing. Diane hasn’t disappointed with this one and I’d highly recommend that you treat yourself to a copy if you haven’t read it already.

—SPOILER ALERT—

I was intrigued by Laura’s relationship with Sarah and as each piece of the puzzle was revealed I guessed that the two of them were related, and that Laura’s pendant held the key. I was right on some level, but I never would have guessed that Laura was Sarah’s daughter. And the twist with Gilbert threw me for a loop entirely!

Some people might consider the relationship between Dylan and Laura to be quite trite, but I was actually rooting for them to end up together, after discovering that her whole life has been built on a lie it’s good that she gets to end up with one of the good guys.

There was just one question that was left unanswered for me at the end of the book, if Sarah’s Alzheimers is so bad that she doesn’t even recognise her own husband all those years later, how on earth did she recognise Stuart and mistake him for Gilbert?

And I suppose the other one was: I understand why Emma stopped talking, but what made her start again? Did Sarah say something to her after they ran away, or was it because of the experience that Dylan shared with her in the park? Or did she really just need time to work things through in her own head and realise that she really wasn’t to blame for Ray’s death?

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Strangely enough that day came about sooner than I had expected; I was running out the door to a doctor’s appointment when I realised my Kindle was out of juice – I glanced desperately at the bookshelf and the nearest book was Sanctus. When faced with the dilemma of staring at blank walls while waiting for a doctor’s appointment that are notoriously delayed, or reading this book I opted for the latter.

And do you know what?

I was shocked to discover that by the end of the first page I was hooked in and from that point on I pretty much had my nose stuck in this book every chance I got!

The reality is that it does fit in the same genre as the Da Vinci Code; you know the drill: man discovers religious secret that could change the world forever, story proceeds to battle between the good guys and the bad guys as the former seek to reveal it while the latter try their damnedest to keep it hidden. Oh and usually you can throw in a bit of a love interest.

Sure it’s formulaic, but is that such a bad thing. The same can be said for pretty much every romance novel ever written but it doesn’t stop you reading another.

The key really is not in the formula, but the way it’s implemented, and in that respect Toyne does a fantastic job, which is pretty impressive since this is his debut novel.

If you’ve not read Sanctus already and you don’t like spoilers then you might just want to skip out here and head over to Amazon and stick a copy in your basket or download it to your Kindle.

If you have already been introduced to the order of monks that protect the Sacrament, or you don’t mind a spoiler or two then stay with me…

—SPOILER ALERT—

I think it’s pretty standard stuff for books of this kind to end with a death of the secret keeper, and usually the more gruesome or mysterious that death the better. Toyne introduces us to Brother Samuel, a monk who has been ordained as a Sanctus and shown the age old secret of the Sacrament. Despite many months of careful preparation the sight rocks his beliefs and leads him to attempt to escape the ancient Citadel and reveal the truth to the world. I had hoped he would complete the escape, but then that wouldn’t make for a very good story so of course it had to end with him leaping from the top of the walls of the Citadel and coming to a gruesome end in front of a shocked group of tourists. The way he died, as well as his final acts before he jumped are the clues that both the other characters and indeed the reader needs to solve the mystery and discover the secret of the Sacrament.

Toyne keeps the novel moving at an immense pace, incredibly short chapters, sometimes of no more than a page or two, maintain the intensity as well as allowing Toyne to switch viewpoints between the goodies and the baddies (as my grandma used to say). I admit to being a little confused at times as I kept confusing the names of the characters, and then I couldn’t work out whether Liv (Brother Samuel’s estranged sister) was being kidnapped by good or evil!

There were a few events that weren’t fully explained that added to my confused state, including Liv’s meeting with Dr Anata. The meeting itself was all well and good but how on earth did Gabriel know she was there in order to rescue her? I assume Anata is a member of the Mala but it was never really made clear.

I found myself really invested in the characters as time went by, and I think this adds to the intensity of the story line, when you desperately want someone to succeed in their quest you can’t stop turning the pages to ensure that they come out in one piece! I admit to a sharp intake of breath when I realised that Liv had unwittingly put Bonnie’s life in danger, and then breathed a sigh of relief when the new mother came out of that encounter alive and well, though sadly not with her family intact.

Toyne builds the pace bit by bit as the novel races towards it’s explosive conclusion when the secret of the sacrament is finally revealed.

And didn’t that make me stop and think.

To imagine that Eve was a God and not a mere mortal. And that rather than Adam and Eve being a couple and the start of the human race that Adam was a jealous man who lied about Eve and turned other men against her so that eventually they captured her deep in the depths of a mountain and imprisoned her there for thousands of years until the day came that the sacrament would be unlocked and destroyed.

Sometimes I read a book and when I’ve closed the last page I head straight for Google to see whether there is any truth in the basis of the story, or just to learn more about the subjects touched on my the author. And this was one of those books, I was trying to learn more about the Heretic Bible, was it real or just a figment of Toyne’s imagination? Did he start from something and develop it into this Sacrament? I have to admit that I didn’t get very far so if anyone knows the answers I’d love to hear them.

The book ends, not in the Citadel, but in the local hospital where we discover the fate of Arkadian and Liv and the other brothers of the Sacrament. I do like such lose ends to be tied up, but as I read throughout he last page I was quite disappointed with the ending – although it became more clear when the facing page stated that Coming in Spring 2012 is the exciting sequel called The Key (it’s due out in April and is available for pre-order from Amazon). So it would seem that the ending of Sanctus is not really an ending as such, more a cliffhanger of what is to come next. While slightly annoyed at not having everything resolved here and now I am also pleased at the thought of continuing on this adventure with Liv, and I assume Gabriel, and discovering the rest of the secrets that Toyne is yet to reveal.

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Thank you for sending me a copy of your memoir, Unnaturally Green; I’ve never seen the musical Wicked but it’s on my theatre bucket list so I was really interested to read more about what it’s like to take part in the show.

I love musicals but until I read your book I never really thought too much about the sheer scale of them, the set changes and the costume changes and the attention to detail that makes such an amazing experience for the audience each and every night.

I was intrigued to learn that the main characters have standby actors waiting in the wings to cover for them, and that in turn the Standby also has a standby in the form of the Understudy. I have to admit that I think I’d prefer to be the Understudy, because at least they get to appear one show each night in the Ensemble. I’m not sure I’d have the patience to sit around just waiting for the star to call out. I also think that having to perform so infrequently would fill me with dread!

I stopped part way through reading to look your performances up on YouTube and you are pretty amazing, I especially love Defying Gravity.

I’ve really enjoyed spending the last few days getting to know you and learning about your short spell (hee hee) in San Francisco as you in turn got to know what it was like to really be Elphaba.

Felicia you have a wonderful writing style and I wonder if you might try your hand at fiction one day. Be sure to look me up if you do.

P.s. are you still green behind the ears?

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At 432 pages it’s not a brief read by any means, but I enjoyed every minute of it!

Douglas Edwards was one of the first people to be employed by Google back in the day when it was just a small start up company finding its feet in the middle of the dotcom boom. Well he was employee number 59 to be exact – it says it right there on the cover!

Doug’s job was to shape the voice of Google and to help it find an identity in the real world where not everyone was a programmer and didn’t necessarily understand geek speak.

This book was a real eye opener, the view inside the Googleplex (that’s what they call Google HQ) was pretty much no holds barred and I’m quite surprised based on some of the things I learned that Google is as successful as it is today. Although actually those very same things are perhaps why Google is as successful as it is today.

You see Larry Page and Sergey Brin, the founders of the infamous search engine, operated their business in a way completely alien to me. I spend far too many hours of my waking life in a corporate environment surrounded by rules and red tape. If you see a problem and want to fix it you can spend months going round and round in circles trying to find someone to put a tick in the right box or free up some resource.

Not at Google.

If a Googler finds a problem they’re expected to just get on and find a solution for it, whether it’s in the job description or not. In fact in the early days no one even had a job description! It was this way of working, have an idea – put it live – let the users decide whether they like it or not, that made Google the most popular search engine (I say that like I know it’s true, I think it’s true, they certainly knock the socks off every other search engine I’ve used).

Doug has documented his time at Google (1999 to 2005) in an extremely engaging and insightful book. I really feel like I got to know what it was like to be a Googler. To work in the Googleplex with it’s kitchen filled with cereals and fizzy pop and jars of jelly beans, and the games room where you could battle with your colleagues when you needed some downtime. I learned the origins behind some of Googles other great products, such as Adwords (named by Doug because it sounded like Edwards) and Gmail (the email service we all know and love but which was never actually destined for public use) of and those cute little Google Doodles that appear on our search engine to celebrate holidays and special birthdays.

There were times when I wished that I too could work in this wonderful environment. But then more often than that there were times I was grateful I didn’t. For that kitchen and games room were in use around the clock, Googlers worked through the night to complete their code and keep that search engine up and running. And Doug too, he spent many a late hour working on emails and writing copy as the voice of Google. Doug who had a wife and young children at home. As I was reading I did wonder what he really though of his “work/life balance” and whether his time at Google was worth the sacrifices he made with his family time.

Although saying that he worked at Google for just six short years, short in the general scheme of a career, and as employee 59 his stock options in that start up would have been worth a pretty penny the day it floated on the stock exchange. So maybe it was a sacrifice worth making for the long term stability of his family’s financial future.

As I say, I learned a lot from this book but not just about Google itself, I also learned some things about business and the best way to work to get things done. I dog eared a couple of pages as I was reading and here’s why.

Firstly I wanted to remember Larry’s Rules of Order. And they were:

1. Don’t delegate – if you do things yourself things happen more quickly (I have to say that I completely agree with this and it would be the way I prefer to work if only I actually had time to do everything myself!)
2. Don’t get in the way if you’re not adding value – so true, there is nothing more frustrating than people trying to get involved with what you’re doing if all they’re really doing is getting in the way.
3. Ideas are more important than age – yep, just because you’re older than me doesn’t mean my ideas are rubbish!
4. The worst thing you can do is stop someone from doing something by saying “No. Period” – this is something that I try to live by every day, sometimes in life you do have to say no, but you should really make every attempt to follow up and help find an alternative solution to the problem.

The other thing I wanted to remember was that sometimes the best solution on paper isn’t necessary the best solution. Doug learned this when sourcing a supplier for their CRM system, he carried out his due diligence and was going to give the contract to an experienced supplier. Larry on the other hand gave the contract to a start up business with a barely developed product. Why was this the better solution? Because that small start up was more than happy to base itself in the Googleplex and develop that product to custom suit Google’s needs. That would never have happened (well not unless they paid through the nose) with the established company where Google would have had to work within the realms of the off the shelf product.

I really enjoyed I’m Feeling Lucky, and whether you want to learn more about Google or just more about running a business in general then I think you will enjoy reading it too.

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